Saturday, August 25, 2007

Flashbacks

I was at Miss Kitty's earlier tonight and met a cute guy with the most beautiful biceps, forearms and hands. I couldn't keep my hands off of him! We talked, danced, and drank. I ended up making out with him and while it was nice, I kept flashing back to the way M kissed me and touched me. I don't want M (because he's obviously a douchebag) but I want to connect with somebody like I did with him. Just without the false promises and superficial bullshit.

That's just it, right? Does one exist without the other? Can you be that deeply sexually and intellectually attracted to someone without some sort of falsification to make it happen?

I was so distracted by thoughts of M that I ended up deciding that if Biceps called me I wouldn't answer. He may be really hot, but my mind has decided that he's not up to par with M. I want so desperately to have a relationship, but at the same time I don't want to settle down. I want someone who loves me unconditionally and is always there for me, but I want them to pretty much give up their lives so I can act on my whims to relocate.

In other news, I've begun reading The Vagina Monologues. I love it! I knew I had to buy the book when I busted out laughing in the middle of Barnes and Noble. I bought it yesterday evening and am almost finished with it. Also while out shopping at The Grove yesterday I bought these boots in black:
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They were my birthday splurge. And yes, you should be jealous.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

SEXY BOOTS ;). I understand where you're coming from woman. Things/"He" will come your way ,when you least expect it/him. So stop expecting :-P. I know you hear it all the time and you're just sick & tired of waiting and I know that you long for that security, warmth of a strong arm that will protect you from all harm but also allow you to roam freely. I don't think it's impossible to find a guy that will love you unconditionally and give you freedom to roam/be willing to roam with you.
You gotta let go of that earning for trying to find someone and just allow life to take its course :-D. Take care woman and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Love ya--Rathchavady

Lisa said...

What? Birthday?!
OMG I totally bought you those coach boots, and now you've gone and spoiled it and i have to return them. Ok.... no, I'm lying.

Happy Birthday darling!

Siena Phoenix said...

Thank you both so much for your birthday wishes! :)

Anonymous said...

Coach boots. Why yes, I am jealous.

Oh women and men. I think I'm going to be a lesbian next year. Not 'cause I like women, but because I hate men.

It'll all be very Samantha from Sex & the City.

Siena Phoenix said...

Angie- Why wait until next year to be a lesbian? No time like the present!